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Saturday, March 19, 2011

Isles

the isles are tough to navigate
for a lone person at night
as they’re clogged with families
loud children who rarely get out
exhausted men trying
to seem fine with it all
walking beside their unhappy women
who struggle to find
a mere once of happiness
as they pile their carts high
with cheap food and few goodies

you pass by knowing to not be annoyed
but to be thankful you’re not them
other things flood your mind anyway
you chose your items quickly
and make way to checkout
where lines are long
some push their way ahead
of those nice enough to allow
the louder and more aggressive
steal their way and impose themselves
makes them feel bigger I guess

a little girl behind you in line
picks up the divider you set
and swings it around
then smacks your eggs
her mother yacks on the cell
while piling food high on the conveyer
the checkout woman glares
someone steals your empty cart
while you pay your bill
theirs was too full

$50, half wine, gone
4 bags, including the eggs
Your head aches but
You remember you’re not them
The cashier takes a few moments away
to grab you a cart
while you bagged
such a person is rare indeed
and makes the night a bit better

At last

Nothing works in this life
I don’t either
Just keeping a vehicle
pointed in the right direction
brain dead or dying
noise from the radio
numb legs and spirit
looking forward to the wine
that sits waiting for me at home

the internet’s down again
the brakes grind with every stop
cable’s too costly
silence fills the expensive apartment
I wait for my movie to load
Ten hours or so
I won’t be interested by ten
I don’t work either I guess

Outside are stumbling of others
They don’t work either
Not really. They look to be shells
Fitting in, being all right
Being another brick
Hurling toward the end
Purposeless.
How can their lives be working?
They don’t live them

I sit and drink and think
I’m better this way
Than spending money
To be around those who don’t work
Even as they need breaks from their jobs
Grappling for superiority
Drinking, fighting, fucking
All mere tools to impose their rule

I don’t want to deal with them tonight
Or most nights. My wine kicks hard
And softly lands me to comfort
In front of the keyboard
Where I can let my writing free
And be free. Of them. Of superiority.
Of domination, or the struggle for it.
I can be the lover, not the fighter
Passion, swaying from good to bad
Yet alone and needing it all

The fan still runs out some of the outside noise
The glass full of cheap red
A lone cat outside the window
Commonality at last.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

sunset

The purple you wear is like the sunset
That spotlights the gorgeous reality
Of earth and sun as they circle each other
Round and round, year after year

And we stand there admiring the colors
As the cold wind kicks up
Punishing us for daring to enjoy
The intensity of the sun

I look at you in your beauty
Your eyes alive even as you’re relaxed
Purple looks great on you
Contrasts your light complexion


Us standing there in a moment of beauty
Holding each other
Is like the sunset
A moment in time in going round and round

Enjoying the intensity of us
For the moment, before
Going away for a while
Just like the sun

And the cold wind of your departure
Will punish me for enjoying our intensity
Before your return
I await the morning of your presence.

blocks

I sat trying to uncork more than wine
I knew there was something I had to write
But it didn’t come easy for once
It was like waiting for ketchup
To drip out of the bottle
While your fries get cold

My fries are blocks of ice